The Silver Linings Playbook Chapter 3

Orange Fire Enters My SkullYes, I really do believe in silver linings, or soly because Ive been seeing them almost every day when I emerge from the basement, push my head and arms through a trash bag so my torso pass on be wrapped in charge plate and I will sweat more and then go running. I always try to coordinate the ten-mile running portion of my ten-hour exercise routine with sunset, so I can finish by running west past the playing fields of Knights Park, where, as a kid, I played baseball and soccer.As I run through the park, I look up and see what the day has to offer in the way of divination.If clouds are blocking the sun, there will always be a silver lining that reminds me to keep on trying, because I know that while things might seem dark now, my wife is climax back to me soon. Seeing the light outline those fluffy puffs of white and gray is electrifying. (And you can even re-create the effect by holding your hand a few inches away from a naked lightbulb and tracing yo ur handprint with your eyes until you go temporarily blind.) It hurts to look at the clouds, but it excessively helps, akin most things that cause pain. So I need to run, and as my lungs burn and my back rebels with that stabbing knife feeling and my leg muscles harden and the half inch of large-minded skin around my waist jiggles, I feel as though my penance for the day is being done and that maybe God will be pleased enough to lend me some help, which I think is why He has been showing me interesting clouds for the past week.Since my wife asked for some time apart, Ive illogical more than fifty pounds, and my mother says that soon Ill be at the weight I was when I played varsity soccer in high school, which is also the weight I was when I met Nikki, and Im thinking maybe she was upset by the weight I gained during the five years we were married. Wont she be surprised to see me looking for so muscular when apart time is overIf there are no clouds at sunset which happened yest erday when I look up toward the sky, orange fire enters my skull, blinds me, and thats almost as good, because it burns too and makes everything look divine.When I run, I always pretend I am running toward Nikki, and it makes me feel like I am decreasing the amount of time I have to wait until I see her again.